What keeps you alive? Your will? Your conscious mind? Your choice to remain open, alert, present? Or is it something just beyond your grasp: an obscure automatic process, quietly carrying you forward until it doesn’t?
These are the questions that haunt Wellness Plan, the second full-length album by Genital Shame, the solo project of musician Erin Dawson. Her music exists in a dissociative fog where terror, resignation, and determination become nearly impossible to separate. On Wellness Plan, Dawson widens that world, folding black metal and noise together with fragile moments of stillness.
Dawson’s approach is informed by a background in music education and classical guitar, which she brings to her own strange iteration of experimental music rooted in black metal.
Wellness Plan is harmonically dense, with riffs and melodies folding into one another in unexpected ways. It draws from a tradition of weirdo black metal that treats the genre less as a fixed language than as something to pull apart, distort, and reassemble.
While making Wellness Plan, Dawson encountered old microscopic footage of white blood cells searching for viruses. “I love the idea that even if you struggle with and mask a deep self-hate, there’s something microscopic inside you voting for your continued, healthy existence—even if you feel like you don’t deserve it,” she says. “It’s also about the idea that as beautiful as that image is, it’s still not quite enough.”
Dawson describes Wellness Plan as “a process of acceptance through images of disappearing.” The contradiction between the desire to disappear and the body’s impulse to survive runs throughout the record, returning to the question of how much control we have over our own survival.
Tracklist
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#1 Replace What I'm After
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#2 Down Titration Strategies
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#4 I Want to Die Before You
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#6 Nucleus Accumbens Atrophy
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#10 Goodbye (I've Left It Open)
